I love the new year and the retrospectives and the planning and the beauty of a blank calendar. This year is no exception. I've taken some time to go over 2015, thanks to these lovely printables at The Happiness Planner. My answers to some of the questions were a little shocking, to tell the truth.
Without going into too much gory detail, I overdid 2015. Some of it couldn't be helped, some of it was all my fault. I've been battling a Cold from Hell (which would make a great band name, btw) for over a week and all signs point to the fact that my body has completely given out, surrendered, thrown out the white flag, etc. No matter how many supplements, vitamins and amino acids I choke down, they cannot undo the damage that 12 months of stress has done to my body.
Ironically (?), this was my goal for the year. I was going to Dream Bigger. I still love that mantra. Looking back at my awesome writing spreadsheet, I estimate that I wrote approximately 325,000 words in 2015. That doesn't count words produced during edits, blogging, etc. That doesn't count words that I produce in a very stressful full time day job. This is a metric shit-ton of words, of hours spent at laptops, huddled over the ipad mini on the train, scribbling on notebooks.
As much as I love it, and while I now know I am completely capable of it, I can't do this in 2016.
Not unless I'm having fun doing it.
That's what my reflections have shown me, in a striking black-and-white clarity. I love having fun. If I'm having fun, late nights and tendonitis and the strange looks of parents on the soccer field as I balance 300 pages of a manuscript-in-edits on my lap while sitting on the sidelines are all 100% worth it.
If I'm not having fun, well. It's just not worth it. Pretty simple, right?
So for 2015, I am going to be a rock star. That's going to be me, up there on the amp, head banging and singing my heart out. I'm having fun for the sheer fun of it. I'm going out with my girls, I'm supporting my tribe, I'm drinking wine, I'm writing the stories that make me feel like Mick Jagger, Beyonce and Taylor Swift all rolled up into one. I'm going on more roadtrips, seeing the ocean, basking in Broadway lights. And in this, I believe I will find the balance that eluded me in 2015.
That said, I'm SO FREAKING EXCITED about some of the projects that are in the works and/or germinating right now. I wish I could tell you all about them, but until I get official go-aheads, please follow me on social media, or sign up for my newsletter so you can get the updates for 2016.
I'm wishing all of you a very balanced and fun 2016.
P.S. Have you checked out RUSHING TO DIE yet? It came out this week!